Life on life's terms sure has it's rollercoaster's!!
My problem I guess is with this so called unity, s,h,a,r,p's (skin heads
against racial prejudges) they hate and attack skinheads that is what they
are about! words are so easy to say but actions are what you stand for!!!
The skinheads that I know are not about killing off other races but if those
bad apples of other races die they are not broken hearted but if a 911
scenario was taking life everyone of those same guys would run in the
burning building to save anyone and their pets and would not even hesitate
it is a given fact they would! Hero type of stuff and these are the so
called bad element that does for sure have their bad apples but mostly just
want to prolong the inevitable and keep blue eyes around a little longer and
are proud of the color of their skin and all of the accomplishments
throughout time white man has provided. And I really think as a whole it is
not the white folk that cause the racism today and lack of pride in it that
is going to speed up the demise of the light eyes or white skin or even both
because those are not dominate traits on the grand scale when you mix skin
color and eye color those traits are not dominate so I am proud to have
both and should be . Black pride, Mexican machismo pride are excepted and
even admired things by most of society but white pride is a hate crime????
And what the fuck where is American pride??? REALLY I THINK WITH THE REBEL
FLAG GOING WITH IT JUST BEING CRUSHED INTO POLLACK JOKE POLITICALLY CORRECT
GRAYNESS!
These unity people confront everyone with where are you from!!!! Well I am
born Raised and will die OC via Brooklyn Ellis island via Poland and the
other side via British limey Birmingham and all American!! I am me, I did
my terms up state, discharged my number and am coming up on 7 years sober
and pretty honest and what the fuck do you want??? I have friends in and
out of the program of every race creed religion and lack of religion and I
am proud to be me, just the way the power that be made me, personally mostly
conservative libertarian that hates stupid people! I am really street smart,
fairly intelligent and a lot sick and tired of being put down for being a
white boy!!!! By movies, TV shows, by women, by most all comedy, by
immigrants that were not born in southern California, by transplants, by
African Americans and Mexican Americans by fag's or people not proud enough
to be just an American without being just American and nothing else as I
call them the prefix's!!! my actions are I am a recovering alcoholic,
definitely a I want more kind of addictive personality that helps other
addicts I go to shows play hard work harder and don't have or want kids
because there are too many already but I do my best to leave a positive and
unforgettable impression on the little HUMANS I care about, my dog is well
behaved and I can take him anywhere without a leash I would die for him but
think P.E.T.A.is people for the eating of tasty animals and I won't let a
women pump gas or take out the trash and I lift the seat do my business wipe
the porcelain bowl with a piece of toilet paper and I put down the seat and
flush!! What the fuck else do you want to know who do I want for president??
None of the above is who with the choices I have they all want to add 20
million new prefix's to our country that cut in line to get here!!!! So I
despise all 3 of the only choices we really have because every 100% American
I have ever met would say they hate being cut in front of in line and the
people waiting in line to come here disserve to have some respect!
That is who I am and a tiny bit of what I am about Chris@ocpunkrock.com is
"3much dimebagski" The Bow, lurch I have had a couple nicknames to say the
least but I hang out with a lot of down people and can get by with being
myself in every walk of life from park bench to park place that is what the
actions of my friends and some of them are skinheads and I am proud to be
white and proud of the friends I call friend and most are upstanding members
of society with a scary and serious past that haunts us in many ways of life
and one hell of a stigma to overcome because of that past but they are
Americans none the least. Unity's actions are they confront with hostile
intent, they gang together with weapons and alcohol they stab a Samoan in
the neck and kill him he had a great game face, helped the homeless and the
veterans, went to an AA meeting at dawn before work every day for over a
year. They stab a school teacher in the heart that should get a metal for
teaching out of control teen agers at public school and his friend in the
back 4 times! A group that throws up gang signs right in your face asks you
where are you from with attitude and confrontation and a holier than though
fighting word aggression so with that they are just some gang of thugs and
most of society believes that the crimes these people do are committed by
the very people these guys are out to destroy! Actions sure do speak louder
than words.
It is not about the concept they talk eventually if you honestly do the
math of it humans will all be a shade of grey someday. As sure as California
will break off at the fault lines and big bear will be the next Catalina
island. It might be a hundred thousand years or tomorrow but it is just a
fact! And really it is not even a calculation it is simple common sense and
such a simple explanation of the basic math involved of the ocean full of a
Googolplex of gallons of water weighing 8 pounds per gallon pounding against
a shore line of sand, shaking the ground that has cracks in it, will
eventually break off a piece no way to predict when but a guarantee it will
happen! Same with millions of humans slamming against each other that were
separated by those gallons of water all bumping uglys, eventually since
brown eyes and darker skin are dominate the math can probably be an easier
to show on paper and for sure a more accurate and even a ball park figure on
what century this will be an absolute!!! So to be of the white skin and
light eyes and not going to reproduce what is wrong with me being proud to
be of 2 things in humans that will one day no longer exist?? What is wrong
with even wanting to protect it and cherish it and want to do my best to
preserve it for as long as possible??? Isn't it American?? I am not too
proud of a lot of things that happened to form and create this country but I
love it compared to any other! No one in my white ass blue eyed family ever
owned a slave and they had to fight hard, work hard, and wait in line to
come here!!! They learned the language, adopted it's beliefs and assimilated
into our society! And they fucking waited in line!!! Oh and did I mention
they waited in line???
I can't pray hard enough that no one goes through the pit sighing unity
Thursday night I really don't know how I or the FELLA'S will react right
now. I do know I am going to do everything in my power to make sure they get
one warning and then they are out the door and out of the parking lot but I
can't speak for everyone!!! And the same with anyone that gets stupid drunk
or is out of control and wont pit with just a little common sense! You pit
at your own risk and there are times during a show where anyone can make a
lap but when it goes off just realize shit happens. I am not there to fight
and I will fight if I feel threatened and I am going to have a great time
thanks for taking the time to read my thoughts trust me I will have moreJ
Chris
Not only am I grateful to be able to reboot and start 2008 over again because today I am alive, I woke up today I did not come to I am healthy! I am aware that there butt for the grace of god I could be fighting a strike case, fighting a strike case while in custody with a public defender all for just defending a friend or myself. So not only do I have to face the fact Steve is gone and Chris is at least home now and will be ok. In the matter of fact of my mind, I could have been at the wrong place wrong time, be defending a friend or myself, catch a case or be in Chris’s or worse yet Steve’s shoes. That is the foremost and obvious reality but my mind could even see a tape of it being a death penalty case. In some of the scenarios of my imagination the green mile and I am walking it.
That is somewhere I really do not want to be today, honestly this very minute, my life as I know it could have been over and it makes me very grateful, angry, humble and drained from head to toe with a bright light beaming that I am now to focus on. I have been told that I can start a bad day over at anytime I choose. Well I say I am going to forget the system restore, blow up the c drive with a full format, and start my 2008 all over right this very minute!
My 2008 so far has been brutally testing on every aspect of my being! Not only is there three in the R.I.P. realm one recovering from being stabbed in the heart. First Randy’s fatal heart failure, then Steve being murdered, next day OC Dave dying of premature semi natural causes at 50 years old, add watching a close friend loose a grandparent. Then yet another be forced to face a volatile situation in her own home on Christmas day and anyone that knows me knows about the one that Over dosed on Christmas day and the fact of becoming single again, valentine’s day would have been a year with the same person! That is just some of the reality of my life in the last month and a half! My world is in need of some grieving, some coping, and some recovery!
I start with a plea to the powers that be, something that IS, the faith in the unknown that I know there is a power far greater than me, NO MATTER IF IT BE THE POWER OF POSITIVE THINKING, LITTLE GREEN MEN, THE ALMIGHTY SITTING ON A THROWN PULLING THE STRINGS WITH OH SO MANY NAMES AND SO MANY LIVES LOST ARGUING OVER WHAT HIS NAME REALLY IS I HAVE FAITH AND I KNOW IT IS THERE AND PRAYER WITH THE FAITH CHANGES THINGS! IT JUST DOES! AND HERE IS MINE!
I CALL IT GOD FOR LACK OF A BETTER WORD HELP ME accept the things I cannot change everything and everyone, the courage to change the things I can me, myself and I and the wisdom to know the difference! THE SERENITY PRAYER!
I think I have worn out the carpet at the foot of my bed with that one and it is time turn up the action. What can I NOT change is not really relevant so let’s move on to the meat of it me! I can only speak for myself but when I get knocked down I get back up with the goal of learning something from the fall. Well first off, there is one absolute. I will one day no longer breathe and period end of report, 100 percent money back guarantee there is nothing I can do about it except just accept it. So now that that is out of the way no matter what comes my way I am breathing so it is a good day. I have the people that I love and they love me. I have the ability to put my hand out if I fall and to lend it to help someone up from their fall. I want my friends and family to know my hand is still out for a whole lot of both! Many of our cups need filling in many different ways. I can’t we can do something to make our day-to-day struggle for the positive to come brimming to the top! I am calling on all that make it to save a chicken to put their hand in to make it a fun filled hand out new start to a good year of great times with legendary people! Only you can prevent forest fires so leave the gasoline at home and bring your fire extinguisher. I am asking everyone, I am doing it for me, I am asking it for you and only we can. Out of all the bands I know the members of and so many of the many close friends I have talked too we have all been sick and tired of the stupidity for years. As I sit and talk with chicken as we let our dogs play and drink our coffee a couple of times a week. We reminisce on back in the day, we grieve our lives bad choices and some of the bummers life throws at us. We always reflect on how good we have it and how lucky we are to be here. He has told me in so many words and I know the best gift we could give him is just a fight free good old fashion puck rock time for the benefit show. I know that Steve is watching over us right now and be there in sprit at every show we hit! Life is too short already for us to speed up the day we see him again! I ask all of us to take a minute before we leave the house to go to the show, take the time to tell the mirror that you will leave your bully back in the yard for this show and do what you can to see if it can carry on to every show. To just try it and see where it takes us! It can’t hurt and it won’t be that hard and if we need to we can take it to the ring on another night. I know you’re not a pussy! You know I am not a pussy, lets not have to prove it this show and maybe we will get some pussyJ thanks for taking the time to read this I hope you will let me know what you think if you did!!!!
I will even just say please and thank you!
Chris@ocpunkrock.com